The Land of NeverWas

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thoughtless

10 o’clock
i bet they’re fucking right now
(stop)
his hands are all over her
she’s got herself wrapped around him
(stop it)
wonder what’s on tv
maybe she’s watching tv too
(stop doing this to yourself)
lying there half asleep
thinking about me
(stop)
no, i doubt i cross her mind
she walked away far too easily
(stop it)
in a few days i’ll be a vaporous thought
adrift on the winds of yesterday
(stop doing this to yourself)
ah, i need a drink to numb the pain
no, alcohol is like ingesting liquid depression
(stop)
but fuck it, who cares
i sure the fuck don’t
(stop it)
just like her
oh god, she’s going to marry him
(stop doing this to yourself)
i need a tourniquet to stop
the flow of thoughts
racing through my head
not to mention the gut wrenching
pain, that has to
(stop)
(stop it)
(stop doing this to yourself)
i need to find a way to stop
thinking
please let me find a way to become
thoughtless

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16 thoughts on “thoughtless

  1. Erin on said:

    This is great..I’ve been there before no doubt.

  2. Beautiful and succinct like a sucker-punch to the heart. Thank you.

  3. Sarah on said:

    This is so heartbreaking and saddening because I have been in this exact position. Just reading it brought back all the feelings and pain I went through for what feels like eternity after my ex left me.
    Even though I’m (almost) entirely over everything, it still is very comforting to know I’m not the only one who has felt such pain and such intense desperation:(
    I really, really enjoyed this poem. Thank you.

  4. toddrinker on said:

    Thank you all for the comments. They make me glad I decided to write and share.

  5. David on said:

    Great job, Todd. No matter how many times we may go through this, it always sucks, and it’s always nice to know you’re not the only one. If it’s happened before to somebody else, then there’s hope it may get better, that this feeling isn’t forever.

  6. Thomas on said:

    Very well done. I am at a very similar spot in my life right now, really does hit you.

  7. Chris Reynolds on said:

    That’s the way to dictate your thoughts without undue embellishment.

  8. Amelia on said:

    Just stumbled upon this, I have to say its so refreshing to read this instead of all the “In love” quotes, poems and pictures. My ex walked out on me not to long ago, even though we were just friends at the time. No reason why, no excuse, no explanation. He just left, leaving me in the middle of all my shattered dreams and broken promises he made. Leaving to me to bleed as i cut myself on all the broken pieces. I don’t feel so alone now after reading that. Thank you for writing this and sharing it with everyone.

  9. Thanks for taking me back there, haha.
    alcohol unfortunately solves nothing, but weed slows down those thoughts and lets you explore them at a realistic pace. just a suggestion.

  10. aston on said:

    I at that point in my life , hurt . ripped in to very little slivers . like to know the pain is real and not alone.

  11. sad heart on said:

    Comforting to know that men feel this way too.
    Thanks for being so open
    Feel better

  12. Exactly what I’m thinking right now. Lost my Love. So hurt. Want him back. Oh god, why do feelings exist???? Hate them at the moment…

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  15. Anomamous on said:

    Beautiful simply amazing

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